~7 mos ( and 2 days) old~

I can not believe how fast time is going by. Our little baby that we had prayed for for so long is 7 mos old. God has truly blessed us with our son. We do not understand how we got so lucky to have such a sweet, happy and loving son!

What he has been up to lately ~
*You are 19 lbs 12 oz now
*You can push yourself into a sitting position and sit all by yourself now. You do not need any assistance at all.
*You are eating veggies, fruit and oatmeal now.
*Your 1st tooth just came in this morning. You always have your first on the weekends - too funny!!
*You LOVE your Elmo.
*You look for us if we are in a different room than you.
*You are wearing 6-9 mos clothes.
*You like to push up with your hands and feet with your hiney in the air.
*You love for me to hold you up beside the couch so that you can stand.

We love you so much baby boy!!!

~ They would be 6 yrs old~

Lately I have been thinking about the boys. This April 25th will be 6 yrs since we lost our precious angels. The thought crossed my mind that they would be starting kindergarten this Fall and what we would have been missing out on. My cousin and sister-in-law were pregnant the same time as me, so seeing their girls grow up and have bdays each year just tears at my heart even more.

Now that we have Hudson, it makes not having Hayden and Evan so bitter sweet. I never knew what we would be missing out on but now that we have Hudson we know. I often think about what life would be like having 5 yr old twins and a 7 month old. Our house would be crazy but a great crazy!! Oh how I wish I could have that crazy right now. Watching Hudson reach every new milestone makes me wonder when the boys would have reached the same milestones in their life.

I know that one day we will see our precious Sons again, in Heaven...but oh how we miss them terribly!! I am not sure if the pain gets easier as time goes on but it does seem to become more tolerable.