~ They would be 6 yrs old~

Lately I have been thinking about the boys. This April 25th will be 6 yrs since we lost our precious angels. The thought crossed my mind that they would be starting kindergarten this Fall and what we would have been missing out on. My cousin and sister-in-law were pregnant the same time as me, so seeing their girls grow up and have bdays each year just tears at my heart even more.

Now that we have Hudson, it makes not having Hayden and Evan so bitter sweet. I never knew what we would be missing out on but now that we have Hudson we know. I often think about what life would be like having 5 yr old twins and a 7 month old. Our house would be crazy but a great crazy!! Oh how I wish I could have that crazy right now. Watching Hudson reach every new milestone makes me wonder when the boys would have reached the same milestones in their life.

I know that one day we will see our precious Sons again, in Heaven...but oh how we miss them terribly!! I am not sure if the pain gets easier as time goes on but it does seem to become more tolerable.