~21 wks & Anxiety...

Today begins my 21st week of pregnancy. It is a little exciting mixed in with a little bit of anxiety. Let me explain...

Almost 5 years ago (April 25th) we lost our twin sons to preterm labor at 21 wks 2 days. The month before I had a bladder infection. I won't go into any details but I can tell you that the experience for Matt & I was pure Hell! Matt was so strong for me and then once he realized I was going to make it then he went through his own grieving. The grieving process is an ugly thing. What we went through I would not wish on my worst enemy because it is so horrible. You never think you will ever have to bury your own children - they are supposed to out live you.

So here we are 5 years later and at 21 wks of pregnancy. I feel really good about this pregnancy. Especially since I go every week for a progesterone shot and then every other week they will check my cervix. Poor Matt...Thursday night I kept moving around and could not get comfy on the couch and I kept sighing. Every time I would move or sigh he would ask me if I was OK. I know in the back of his mind he is just as anxious as I am.

So this week, if you think about it, please keep us and the baby in your prayers. I know that God has his hand on this pregnancy and the baby. He gave us this child... I am not sure if I had shared this before but I had a dream about 2 mos before I got pregnant. My Grandfather and Matt's Aunt visited me in my dream and they told us that they had a little baby BOY for us that we needed to come and get right away. Remember that my Grandfather and Matt's Aunt have both passed away. So, after my dream I woke up and prayed to God that if this was true to please make this happen. I thought that it meant for us to adopt a little boy with Special Needs but we all know how the story ends... I think God gave me that dream to let us know that everything will be ok and will work out. And the cherry on the top was when we found out that we are having a little boy!!! :)

So, please keep us in your prayers...we would greatly appreciate it. :)

Until next time, take care!!

~It's A...

Today I had my 20 wk ultrasound and we found out that we are having a little BOY!! There was no mistaking that either...he is very proud of himself. :) Everything looked great along with the fluid and my cervix. With my history of preterm labor, the doctor wants me to come back every week for a progesterone shot and then every other week to check my cervix. This is all a precautionary measure - nothing to be concerned with. Matt and I will do whatever we have to do to keep from having the same outcome as last time.

We were so excited to see the baby and to hear that everything we perfect. I started receiving text messages last night asking what we were having. One of our nieces (Grayson) sent me a text from school. I made sure to tell her that we would let her know but she needed to concentrate on school. The kids are all so excited because we have not had a new baby on Matt's side of the family in almost 11 yrs.

Well, we are about to leave to meet 2 of Matt's sisters for dinner. But I wanted to make sure to let everybody know our good news!!! Take care...

~I need some advice...

A little over a year ago Matt & I had joined a bowling league with our Brother-in-law... I know - don't laugh but it is fun. Before I found out I was pregnant I decided to quit - I was getting too bored.

There was a couple that we had met along with many others that seemed really nice. Well around last fall the wife came to me and said that she told her daughter about our history and struggle with having a family. Her daughter offered to be a surrogate mother for us. Of course we said "thanks but no thanks". Come to find out her daughter wanted to get her tubes tied and thought that would be the only way she could afford to have it done with being a surrogate mother...crazy I know. Anyway - when we found out that we are pregnant I was very hesitant about telling certain people that are a part of the league especially "her". Once Matt did tell her our news she said "well I knew I would be able to be a Nana to your baby some how". URG! She is very nice but is the type that is ALL UP IN YOUR BUSINESS. Which I can not stand - that makes me pull away even more.

Well, about a month ago she comes in and says really loud in front of everybody - "So Jen, how is OUR baby doing?" Well, first off - when did she become part of our equation?? So, that rubbed me the wrong way... Then last week I decided to stay home because of my sinuses. Matt comes home and starts laughing so hard he ended up getting a cramp in his side. He proceeds to tell me that SHE told him to tell me Hey and to tell the baby that it's NANA said Hey!!!!!!!! Whatthaheck?!?!?!? How do you respond to something like that??? I plan on going with Matt tonight just to get out of the house. And for the past couple of days I have been racking my brain on how to respond to something like that if she says it AGAIN tonight... It would be different if this baby would not have any grandparents and if I was really close to this lady. But I only see her MAYBE 4 times a month. I told my Mom what she said and of course my mom's response was "She better not try to take my name away from me!" In which I told her she had nothing to worry about.

I know this was sort of long but I need your help. How do I respond??? Do I just keep my mouth shut or just say that the baby already has a Grammy and Grandmamma??? I hate to hurt people's feelings but good grief lady.

~Belly Shots

We just returned from having dinner at Mell*w Mushr**m and I had Matt take an updated pic of me. I am a little over 19 weeks. I don't feel like my belly has "grown" any since my last pic but I will let you all be the judge of that. We have our ultrasound scheduled for 2pm on Friday. I will let you all know how that goes when we get home. Keep your fingers crossed that the baby cooperates so that we can find out what we are having.

Oh - something cute happened today. My friend Kim is a labor and delivery nurse and she is letting me borrow her heart doppler. So today I decided to listen to the heart beat. Apparently after 10 mins of listening to the heart beat and trying to locate the baby - the baby was tired of me bothering him/her...so I felt the baby hit or kick the doppler... So neat to feel.

Well, we are off to watch 24 - one of the best shows ever!!! :)

Here are the pics and until Friday - take care!!

~18 wks & Dr. Appt.

This weekend marked the start of my 18th week. My Mom came down for the weekend. We had such a nice visit...we spent most of Saturday shopping. We even met up with my Aunt...it was a great weekend.

Today I had my Dr. Appt. All went well with that. I was able to hear the baby's heart beat - it is in the 130s so I am sort of thinking it is a boy. We would be happy with either as long as the baby is healthy and we can bring it home... I scheduled my ultrasound this afternoon and that will be on the 20th... Hopefully if the baby cooperates we will be able to find out what we are having.

Well, I don't have very much to say today...so I am going to go lay down and take a nap...

Until next time - take care...

~17 wks and Dreams do come true...

As of yesterday I am now 17 wks pregnant...crazy isn't it? :) Once I take a shower today I will have Matt take a belly shot so I can post it...

OMG!!! As I am typing this it is SNOWING!!! Can you believe that it is snowing in GA?!?!? I was hoping that I would be able to see some snow this year - who cares that it is the 1st day of March!! Of course it will not stick b/c it is not cold enough but it is still pretty to look at.

So, like I said - Dreams really do come true. As of this past Thursday, I am an official Stay At Home Wife soon to be Mom!!! I thought that Friday was going to be my last day but Thursday morning IT came and took my desk away. I was not prepared for that. I was mentally prepared for Friday. It was very hard to leave. I have always dreamed of this day but I never thought it would happen. Ever since I was a small girl I have always wanted to be a stay at home mom. My Mom stayed at home with us until we started school and my mother-in-law was a SAHM as well. I am so glad that I have a husband that is so supportive of this decision. I am also thankfull that God has blessed Matt with a great job where we can afford for me to stay at home. This will take a lot of getting used to. My days are already messed up. I could not remember what today was - I was thinking it was Monday already... I will have to set myself a schedule everyday. But I am sure I can get used to this.

Once Matt takes a pic I will post it...

Take care everyone...